Picking up Where I left Off

I have gone way down hill and left the working out/eating behind.  I am at a steady 177.  I have gained back 7 pounds of what I lost in the spring.  It's frustrating but I haven't gotten back into the motivation of it all.

I have to do this.  I have all of the motivational stuff on my desk, reminders so write on this blog to keep up, but I ignore them.  I have the people around me that are skinny and work out who I am jealous of, but I ignore them.  And right now I am tired.  Physically.  And I openly admit that I am lazy.  I'm so lazy.  And lack motivation.  If crafting meant that I could lose weight while doing it, i would be a size two.  I craft way too much and I need to work out. 

I am going to do it.  I have One Month until we get on our next cruise.  I am going to count down the days and do something for 30 minutes every day.  Go.  and I will write down what I did that day.  We'll see if I can do it!

Hmmm.....

Part 1: Update

So, I know I have been avoiding the updates.  And it's not for any good reason except that I am ashamed of what I have been doing.  NOTHING.  UGH.  I have been eating bad, not exercising and just nothing good.  I gained back a couple of those awesome pounds that I lost.  I got back to 178.  However, I am changing.  And this is for real!  I started drinking more water again this week, and eating better and when I stepped on the scale last night and this morning I was at 175 again!  Whoo Hoo.  It's amazing what better eating and drinking water will do for you!  Next week the weather is getting better (cooler outside) and I am going to get out and start to walk with Jack in his stroller!

Excited about that.  I am going to get there....I just want to get to 160...that would be amazing.  But first I have to get to 170, then 165 first.  And anything after 165 I'll jump for joy about!  Celebration time.

Updates

I haven't posted in a while...avoiding.  Today I have a headache...it seems like the month of July I just don't feel good. 
On the note of working out and continued weightlos...I'm sucking at it.  I had lost weight and now I am just hovering at about 175.  And we havent' been working out.  So total that's like 9 pounds.  Which i'm okay with.  But I am in such a slump eatingwise.  For a couple months I was SO good about eating and these last two months have been aweful.  I need to keep it into gear. 
I have two main motivations right now...one is Port Aransas for my birthday in 1 1/2 months and the other is the Cruise in September....two months away.  I can do more.  Just have to get over this headache...just wnat to put my head down and close my eyes.

It's going...

Just an update.  Evan and I are still doing the 90 day work out.  There are some "rest" days that are scheduled and we do that...however have come up with an issue.  We always are out on Friday and Saturday nights.  Therefore, we usually don't want to come home and work out.  Which brings up a problem. It would be more of a 5 days a week work out.  I might be okay with it.  But I feel like i'm cheating the system. 
But overall we are doing it.  I just have to get back into the swing of thing with eating right. 
I am currently back up to 175...results from having an aweful last month in eating. I feel so disgusted about it, but I am getting back on the proverbial wagon and running fast!
I am also, just me, going to start doing a couple of extra work out things because I really want to start getting the rest of the baby flab off.

Supreme 90 Day

I have roped Evan into doing something with me!  Hoping in doing so that we can both benefit from it and keep eachother in check.  Please Lord hear my prayer that we NEED to do this!
We are going to start the Supreme 90 day tonight!  I bought it at Walmart and you have to buy an exercise ball and small weights with it.  But it was only $19.99.  And it is a complete program that gives you the exact DVD workout to do each day.  It does also come with a nututional play with a shopping list and everything.  However, we are going to just do better with our eating in general and do the workout.  and hope that it works. 
  I am going to also do before/after photos & measurements at starting, 30 days, 60 days, and 90 days.  I'm excited to do.  Now, I have to do the commitment!  Which is tough for me. 

old times

This post has nothing to do with weight loss or DIY'ing.  I am listening to Pandora. Love. to an easy listening station.  It's mainly acustic, piano, and michael buble type of stuff.  At the same time, looking at facebook and friend 'stalking'.  With the piano music and looking at photos from people from the past I felt like I was in a movie.  Replaying old times past in my head with this soft theme song playing in the background...very Forst Gump feather flying through the air-esque. 
Evan and I were talking the other day, and I often ponder, where would I be if _________ happended differently?  I know that my life today comes back to many different things of how I got here.  My life story goes something like this in a chain:
Grew up at Grace Lutheran Church, left church because of the crazy new miniter, started going to First Christan Church SM, mom (against my knowing) signed me up for summer church camp after freshman year, fell in love with camp, fell in love with the new people i met, feel in love with B, had a crazy on and off relationship with B, high school, graduated high school, went to TCU, broke up with B, youth sponsor at University Christian Church, dated Cad, broke up with Cad, youth sponsor, camp adult, met Evan while a sponsor, started dating Evan, eventually married Evan, work at Stockyards Station, live in Fort Worth, have a baby Jack!
I've never done that before...really traced all of my steps.  It doesn't seem like too many, but so many memories at the same time with all of those inbewteen moments.  The piano music is still playing, now with Jason Mraz.  Love again. 
My first love is what always pops into my head when I'm listening to certian things.  B.  But I feel like it was doomed from the start.  I think we loved eachother (I know at least how I felt), but it couldn't work the way that we each wanted it to and in HS, forget about it.  But today.  Today is good.  Today I have a great life, a wonderful husband, and the most beautiful and amazing little boy.  He is now the absolute love love love of my lift. 
Going back to "where would I be it _________happend different"...I don't know.  But I know that my life probably wouldn't be as good as it is right now.  Now Norah Jones is singing.  And another memory montage is playing in my head.  and a smile seems to find it's way through magically.  It's one of those moments, where I'm just waiting for that certian song to play that just seals off the memory lane visit.  You know that song I'm talking about.  That song that all you need to hear are the first two or three notes and you just melt into the past.  From a high school memory, love, friends, or whatever it may pertain to.  Whenever I hear that one certian song, I have to stop.  Sometimes out of no where a tear runs down my face by the time it ends.  I have a couple of songs that totally effect me.  But this one song it just flies me back to that time of dancing under the stars at the start of everything in my life and I had no idea what was ahead of me.  But at that time, that song, it was perfection.  If I close my eyes, i am back there.  It's crazy what two notes at the start of a song can do to you.  I'm sure I'll hear that song on the radio pretty soon, it always plays when least expected. 
But again, over all...I wouldn't trade everything that happened for what I have right now.  I love Evan and cannot imagine my life without Jack.  Oh now John Mayer....waiting to hear who's next to pop up. 

reverse, now forward

Whew.  That was a hard last three weeks.  I had gotten to like 172-ish and then all of the sudden everything stalled.  I knew it was going to happen, but it sucked.  Starting mid-may it was crazy at our house.  We took two beach trips in a row.  It was crazy.  We were gone to Galveston and then three days later, we didn't even unpack our bags and we left again for Port A.  They were both fun trips...just bad eating.  I had consistantly lost about 1 - 2 pounds per week.  Which is good...but then I stopped and started stressing about the trips, not working out (not that I did a lot fo that anyways), and eating bad.  I know that I ask fast food for lunch or went out for lunch every day for a couple weeks.  At one point I didn't even want to step on the scale because i knew that I had gained back the weight.  ick. 

But I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 173.  I'm okay with that.  gaining back 2-3 pounds was a lot less than I thought I had.  I'm still down 10 pounds who whoo.  Keep it off!

So this week we are making a conscious effort to eat at home, and I am going to try on the food at work thing.  I know I did so good when i brought all my own food.  I have to get back into that habit. 

Oh and that 30 day challenge that I set for myself, it failed.  But I know that I can loose more weight and at this point, that's what matters. 

Back on the wagon...hopefully.  Hopefully by my birthday, which is in 11 weeks, I can have lost 11 more pounds...that would be amazing if I could weight 162 by my birthday! or less, lol.

It's Working

I haven't updated the weight status in a week...I think.  But it is all going good!  This past weekend I went down to San Marcos for my cousin, Kelsi's, baby shower.  I got a couple of compliments from people.  Not sure if it was the loss of weight of the fact that I was wearing pants that loosen a lot after a wear them for a few minutes.  Who knows.  But a compliment is a compliment and it did was it was supposed it: Made me feel better about myself.

It made me think that I am actually doing good!  I got on the scale this morning (no clothes) and it said 171.3.  Not sure how accurate that is.  I'm sure when I go home today it will say 174.  But if it doesn't, then that's good!  I pretty much weigh myself 1-2 times a day.  I know it's not good...but I feel good about it.

My next goal is 169: buy a new paid of jeans (15 pounds down)....and then 164 is new swim suit.  I'm going to do it!  The first of two beach trips in consecutive weekends starts in T-21 days.  (That's means loosing 0.5lbs a day. Not sure about that....but I'm going to get there!

Chrocheting!

So I have found a new hobby...one that I'm not going to take to extreme (as far as complication) but will have fun with!  I have decided that I like to crochet.  My Great Grandmother, whom we called Granny Piestch (pronounced peach), was a mad-scientist at crocheting.  That's just what she did.  When we would take trips to the store and we would loose her, there was only one place to find her: the yarn section. LOL.  It's true.  Very true!  So I decided a couple weeks ago that I was going to re-teach myself.  Granny P taught me when I was in my teens and of course I didn't remember.
So where do you go when you want to learn something with a "how to tutorial"?!  You Tube of course!  I found a great video and worked it out! 
I did one blanket for us, which is slowly a work in progess.  And I made a baby blanket for Kelsi, my cousin, who is having a boy in early July.  The baby blanket it cute, but very amatuer.  I should have got more help from You Tube on the pattern I used.  Oh well, lessons learned. 
But that's what I'm into right now.  And that's probably good for Evan.  Because I'm not doing other crazy stuff like making multiple diaper cakes, painting frames, making chalk boards, etc.  All of which I have done in the past month. 
I'm excited about blankets.  I LOVE BLANKETS!  That's all for now!

30 Day Challenge::Start

I don't know about you, but every Sunday (for the last few months), I sit in church and think "Tomorrow is Monday.  A start of a new week.  That means I will" "start my new exercise program", "start my new diet", or just do something different.  Well, since I have lost 10lbs, which I feel like I ate aweful this weekend and gained back a pound...I am starting.

I saw someone on facebook post something about The30DayChallenge.  I wasn't sure what it was.  So I googled it.  How did we ever live without google?!

The 30 Day Challenge is a motivator basically.  You set a goal or challenge for youself to accomplish in 30 days.  Some people set goals to do something every day for 30 days, some set weigh loss goals, etc.  I thought it was neat because it wasn't just a food or weight-loss idea.  It is being productive at SOMETHING for 30 days straight.  No soda for 30 days, take 10 minutes for 30 days for meditate, etc.  Cool stuff.

So I thought that I might take one or more of my "church" ideas and put it to the 30 day test.  I have NEVER done something consistant for 30 days.  I am gung-ho for 1 day, maybe 2, then I get laxidazical (sp?) about it. 

I made myself a calendar that has 30 days on it.  and I counted it down starting at 30 days down to 1 day.  During the 30 days I have SO much going on: a trip to San marcos, a birthday party, a trip to galveston.  and Im sure other stuff will pop up.  I know I set goals for my weight loss...but as i breifly said in my previous post, my tummy needs toning.  Weight loss isn't all I need, toning too.  So I have goals and goals and goals that I am setting.
See the previous post for weight loss goals.  But I know I will be able to get there one day if I can do a 30 day challenge:
The 30 Day Challenge:
1) I am challenging myself to do 30 - 60 minutes of exersice every day for 30 days.  That can be a work out DVD, tredmill, crunches, strength, etc. 
2)  Drink 3 glasses of water a day
3)  Only eat fast food 1-2 times a week (if at all)

Those are my 3 challenges that I need to do for 30 days.  if I can do that and stay at around 1200 calories at day....I will be excited to see my progress. 

I will try to post every couple of days to track my progress!

Let's get Honest

Okay, so I hit a big goal this week.  I lost x number of pounds (i'll tell you in  bit).  I wanted to look back at when I first started talking about my weight to see what my loss has been and when I really started with it.  Well, I started talking about it in mid-March.  I said that I was 180...which I really was about 181 to 182.  Truthfully.  And in that same post, I had started my weightloss goals from that 180 mark.  Which is not entirely true.

Let's Get Honest!

When I had Jack, my highest weight was 204.  (UUUGHHHH).  Makes me cringe to say that.  But it's okay, it was all worth it.  I had gained about 40 pounds, well I had lost the first 20 quickly with ease.  Then for about a year (hostly) I was stuck at aout 184.  I didn't much think about it too much because I was so busy and he was born at the beginning of bathing suit season, so when I wore my bikini everyone said "oh you look so good for just having a baby".  Lol.  That still makes me laugh.  Anyways, It is real bikini season now and I don't have that "just had a baby" excuse.  In all of my life I have never HAD to work to loose weight or try to get back to a certian weight.  I just never worried about it, I was always happy with my body (even thought it is pretty curvy). 
ANYWAYS, STOP THE BABBELING!
I personally think of my start weight at 184, NOT 180 as I put in my first post.  So when I got to 179, that was 5lbs down, and 174 is 10lbs down.

My goal is to get back to 160.  That is great for me. 
As of today (and for the past couple days), I am down to 174!  10 pounds down.  SO EXCITING!  I'm getting there, and it's mainly through diet.  But I NEED to kick up the work out.  I am realizing that I have to get toned.  After having Jack my tummy doesn't look that great anymore.  It's still fine, no stretch marks, but over all, it can be better.  I'm excited to think of the possibilities if I can keep going!
The only thing though is being tall, unless I loose large around (i.e. 20+lbs) no one can really notice the weight loss.
I can do it.  I still have the thing taped to my desk that says "It will hurt, it will take time, etc". 
So here are my HONEST and ACCURATE GOALS:
179: Get Nails Done (Check)
174: I'm okay with just getting excited about this 10 pound mark!
169: Buy New Jeans
164: Buy New Swim Suit
159: Spend $100 on new clothes!!

Back on the wagon

This past weekend we had Jack's 1st Birthday Party! I can't believe he is one. It's amazing. He is the most amazing thing in my life. Being a parent completely changes you. Everything you think or do revolves around your child and protecting him. I am no different. He is the love of my life.
Since Jack's birthday was Wednesday and we had been planning this big party, plus my best friend, Melissa's baby shower, I didn't do anything really as far as eat good or work out. Boo.
But I'm still about the same...I weighed myself this morning and it said 177...but I know that a women's weight fluctuates.
I am getting back on the wagon this week! My goal this week is to get to 174 or lower. I'd love to get to 170...but I don't think that's possible in one week with my dedication.

But I'm going to make a goal for myself. I would like to get to between 165 - 170 by the end of the month. That gives me 15 days. 15 pounds in 15 days...piece of cake. Well, we'll see, lol.

Let's revisit my goals from my "March" Post:
Here are mine:
175: Get Nails Done
170:Buy New Jeans
165: Buy New Swim Suit
160: Spend $100 on new clothes for myself (not that I will need new fitting clothes, i just NEVER shop for myself)

I did get my nails done...eventhough when I did it, I was about 1 pound shy of my goal. My next goal is 175 and new jeans, and 170 and new swim suit. I have to reach that within a month. But for now....I'd still like to see how much I can actually loose by the end of the month.
I have 6 weeks until our first beach trip.
LET'S GET GOING!

What to think?

I don't know what to think. A couple of weekends ago we wanted to have Jack's photos taken for his first birthday...of course he is the cutest kid ever, but when a camera gets on him in the sun, he squints and doesn't smile. I was super nervous about his photos turning out good. And I was nervous about how I was going to look.


I got the photos back today from the photographer. It made me want to cry. The first photo was of me holding Jack and my arms were disgusting. So fat and also looking like they were starting the cottage cheese look. And of course there weren't many photos that were great of Jack smiling either...which is a bummer. You pay good money and it doesn't turn out the way you wished.


I feel like I am smaller and I don't know what to think about that. Becuase when I see photos of myself it is a different story. What to do? I know what I need to do. I need to get my butt in gear. I need to exercise. I need to DO IT!!! On Pinterest I found this:

I printed this off and taped it to my desk. I am the worst with motivation. And i need to motivate myself because no one else will!

My main question is "How to get started?". I wish I had Tracy Anderson by my side all day long to train me and help me figure it out. She's an ass-kicker.

I am down to 176 just by eating better...which is good. 8 pounds down. But that isn't enough. I don't want to just eat better and slowly lose the weight. Been there, done that and it take months.
WORK IT OUT! It will HURT, it will take TIME, it will require DEDICATION, I will need to make HEALTHY decisions. It will require SACRIFICE. Iwill need to PUSH my BODY TO ITS MAX. There will be TEMPTATION, but I promise myself, when I REACH MY GOAL, it going to be WORTH IT! A*M*E*N.

Let that be my prayer to myself.

Going Going Going

So I am seriously proud of myself...maybe not for any weight loss...but for my house/cleanliness! One of my goals for 2012 was to be generally 'better' at stuff! Meaning, anything! I know it's genaric but there were so many things in my life that I was just lazy and careless about. And I needed to pay more attention.

One huge thing in my life and my families life was the cleanliness of our hosue. I have always thought of mom's and friend's of mine who always have their house so clean and thought 'how in the heck do they do that'? Well, I'm attempting it and doing good.

One of my things has been keeping my kitchen clean. Now, it has been failing (sort of) this past week, but in general I have been doing pretty well! And trying to keep the living room and Jack's room clean. The only downside is that there are still so much clutter going on everywhere. Maybe I have the 'Spring Cleaning' bug. But I am so tired of all of the extra crap. I took a day off of work on Monday and I spent a solid 4 hours cleaning out our master bedroom and bathroom. I know. A lot. But our room had not been seriously clean since we moved into the house 4 years ago. What??? you say. It's true. Evan and I both had been bad about throwing stuff away and organizing the house. But now it's changing!! I am bound and determined to get it all out! Get out the stuff that we don't need. No more of this 'maybe I think someday i'll use it'. It's gone. I'm done. Trash it. Just throw it away or give it to Goodwill. And looking at it all...I really am stupid for thinking about keeping things. Why did we have a box of unopened towels still from our wedding behind the chair in our bedroom. OPEN IT and put the towels away. Why did I have 4 empty tampon boxes in the cabinet under my sink. Why did Evan have 3 old cologne bottles just sitting on his counter taking up space? We aren't hoarders....but I it somedays seems close. But step one of the clean bedroom and bath room is done!

For this, I am proud of myself. At this point, I probably need 2 more days kid and husband free to clean out the rest of the house. But I'm moving forward. Hazahh! (next to tackle our guestroom closet...thowing away bags of old tissue paper is going to be hard for me).

On the note of my weight loss. I have lost 2 pounds....down to 178. (maybe less becuase I was wearing clothes, lol). I have a nail appointment on Saturday afternoon. So hopefully I will weigh myself on Saturday and I will see 175. That's my first goal. Wish me luck.

:)

March

I thought that I would keep this up pretty often. Maybe this time I will...at least for a short time period.

It seems like every thing in life is moving really quickly right now. Jack is starting to walk. AHH...and we are always going, going, going. However, my house tends to look like a pig sty. Keeping, sort of, my new years resolution to just do better (at everything). I have kept my kitchen pretty clean consistantly. And for me, that's a big deal. But I'm the queen of being lazy and just 'moving things around'...as Evan says. My kitchen and living room look good, but don't go in my room or bathroom...and don't you dare look in any of the closests. Sad.

My big thing right now, besides my crazy pinterest projects. Is trying to get in better shape/loose the remaining baby weight.

Before I got pregnant I was comfortable where I was (althought I'd like to have lost a little more).

Here are all of my stats:
Height: 5' 8"

High School Weight: 150
College Weight: 155
2 Years In To Marriage: 185
(Lost about 25 pounds at one point)
Weight When I Got Pregnant: 164
Highest Baby Weight: 204 (ICK!!)
Current Weight: 180

I started to get into more of a 'weight-loss' frame of mind, mildly, in January. And I had lost 5 pounds. So my current weight is 180. My best goal is 150. My realistic goal is 160.

I've heard that if you set small goals and rewards for yourself it helps. Here are mine:
175: Get Nails Done
170: Buy New Jeans
165: Buy New Swim Suit
160: Spend $100 on new clothes for myself (not that I will need new fitting clothes, i just NEVER shop for myself)
155:
150:

I have not set goals for 155 or 150...mainly because I'm not sure what I would do. And if I will get there.

I would love to be at 160 by the first weekend in June. Which is 2 1/2 months. I am not sure that will happen. 20lbs in 2 1/2 months. Eek.

I'm going to try to log all of my accomplishments and what I'm doing. Currently I am obsessed with weighing myself every day. I am going to try to stick with each Monday.

Wish me luck!!!

January

It's a new year. And it's time to start doing things better this year. I have always been a pretty crafty person...but since having Jack it's been hard to devote anytime to my 'projects'. Also, I am notorious about getting excited with one project, start it and get excited about another, leaving the first behind.

So this year, I am going to try to make a positive effort to not do that. With a lot of things.

My main love right now is Pinterest. Which if you don't know what that is, then you aren't living. OMG it is amazing. Food, DIY, Holiday, Kid, Party, etc Ideas. Never ending possilibity boards! I have many projects that I am dying to-do building up in my "DIY: Things Id Like To Try" board. I did many holiday projects that I got from Pinterest! My favorites so far are the ornament wreats from a coat hanger and wrapping my dining room chanalier with garland, ribbon and ornaments. You better believe that when everything was on sale after christmas, I bought tons of ornaments just to make more weaths next year (maybe for gifts). (Pics in my next post).

Any whoo, right now, I am on the hunt for some sort of storage ottoman or storage bench for our living room. Mainly because having a 9 month old creates LOTS of toys and little pieces. I would love to DIY, but I tend to think that my skills are a lot greater then that are (or so my husband reminds me, lol). I'm going to figure it out though. The one's that I like at Target are at least $70...I know I can do it cheaper then that!

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The other stuff we are working on right now is the possibility of moving. This is something that Evan and I have struggled with probably starting 6 months after we bought our current house. Dont get me wrong we love LOVE love our house. However, the location is not exactly prime for us. And, now that we have Jack, we want have a larger house that we can grow into...especially if we have more children. At this moment, we are on a 2 year plan to move. We have been looking at houses and locations all over the Westoplex (which mean the west side of the dfw Metroplex). I.E. Lake Worth, Keller, NRH, Watauga, Colleyville. However, the kink is that we found a house that we absolutely love in the price range that we are great with. It doen't have a pool and it isn't the location. The sad thing is that if you put this house in the location that we want, we would be paying at least $50K more than it is now. ugh. Pluse the house probably wont be there in two year. Oh well. I'm sure we'll find something when the time is right...AND sell our current home. (cross our fingers on that one).

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Oh well, for right now that, I am on the hunt for my DIY storage ottoman/bench project!!!